Okay God, so I feel like I am out on this limb with nothing to catch me if I fall.
My emotions are going crazy... yet I know they cannot be depended on, I must stand on what I know. The fact is that has been turned upside down. Why did you allow this? Why didn't I do more to try to save my son? Why didn't I rest? Why the horrible delivery? Why the result of our son with you instead of my arms? I don't understand. I am trying to trust you again. Can I believe for miracles again? Help me!
My world is caving in these days. Are you there? I need to sense your presence with me/us. I have got to have you God. Please break through my hurt and find my heart again. I love you!
